I am writing this right now at the dining table back at Mum and Dad's. Today I packed my beachside studio up and moved my belongings back home. Again. My family have gone to Europe, so I thought it would be a great opportunity to not be renting for a bit. I came here with such mixed feelings. I really grew to love the area I was living in, walking distance to the beach, close to friends. All I need to do is just see the ocean when I am waiting at my bus stop in the morning and my day is set. Life was good. Especially over the past summer.
But, I have also been itching for a change of space. That is no real surprise to me, I have moved a lot over the past few years. My family don't live close to the seaside at all, so I really wasn't sure if this was the best decision. I realised today as I started settling in, this is just where I need to be. Although, it feels so bizarre that there is no-one around to chit chat with, it doesn't feel like an empty house at all. It is my sanctuary. Always has been. This place has seen Mum and Dad as a young couple, till now having had us four girls grow into women. I had such a peaceful afternoon siesta, did my yoga outside and watered the garden. It actually feels like a retreat. It is quiet, all I hear is the sound of the birds chirping. I forgot how peaceful it can be here.
I plan to use this time to reassess, recalculate and also get back on track with life. After a crazy kick start to 2014, it feels like it is time to take a step back, somewhat of a 'quasi-hiatus'.
Having studied Ayurveda extensively and knowing how season changes can really shake me up - especially during this time of year. Changes can spin me into a whirlwind and I often start to feel pangs of anxiety about the year ahead. I know that this is time for grounding and to start up some new routines to make this in-between, grey period feel manageable.
I know by the end of this little pitt stop, things will be clearer. I really don't know what is next, I have ideas of what could be next! I have a love/hate relationship with the unknown, but I would rather put myself in these moments of icky, in-between, then to settle into life that doesn't nurture me to continue to grow.
But, I have also been itching for a change of space. That is no real surprise to me, I have moved a lot over the past few years. My family don't live close to the seaside at all, so I really wasn't sure if this was the best decision. I realised today as I started settling in, this is just where I need to be. Although, it feels so bizarre that there is no-one around to chit chat with, it doesn't feel like an empty house at all. It is my sanctuary. Always has been. This place has seen Mum and Dad as a young couple, till now having had us four girls grow into women. I had such a peaceful afternoon siesta, did my yoga outside and watered the garden. It actually feels like a retreat. It is quiet, all I hear is the sound of the birds chirping. I forgot how peaceful it can be here.
I plan to use this time to reassess, recalculate and also get back on track with life. After a crazy kick start to 2014, it feels like it is time to take a step back, somewhat of a 'quasi-hiatus'.
Having studied Ayurveda extensively and knowing how season changes can really shake me up - especially during this time of year. Changes can spin me into a whirlwind and I often start to feel pangs of anxiety about the year ahead. I know that this is time for grounding and to start up some new routines to make this in-between, grey period feel manageable.
I know by the end of this little pitt stop, things will be clearer. I really don't know what is next, I have ideas of what could be next! I have a love/hate relationship with the unknown, but I would rather put myself in these moments of icky, in-between, then to settle into life that doesn't nurture me to continue to grow.
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