Over the years I have transformed myself many a time. I was a hippy, grunger, clubber, workaholic, raw foodie, vegetarian, yogini (just to name a few). I have lived in a realm of extremes. When I am passionate about something I want to live and breathe it and this, I am sure, is something that my family can attest too, seeing me go through all of my 'phases'! After arriving home from India last year, I had a lot of time to really reassess my life, things change so much when you visit a place like Mother India. It is inevitable. I began questioning my black and white approach to life. I was always quick to assign myself a label of what I was and wasn't and after India nothing seemed to fit anymore. It was an existential crisis. I was on struggle street until I began to embrace all the different shades of grey that life had to offer.
I needed time to process this epic trip. Light bulb after light bulb moment came and turned my life upside down - for the better. I decided to have a break from my usual routine and this included a hiatus from my yoga practice, simply I was no longer enjoying it. As a friends said,
"Sometimes you can have too much of a good thing."I felt like I had left myself off the hook. It was a nice feeling. Shortly after, I began to look into my choice to be a vegetarian. Was it right for me still? It took me five months to contemplate the idea to eat meat after about four years following the diet. I tried it, it felt right and that's OK. It's OK to change your mind, I no longer feel guilty for feeling like a walking contradiction at times. Now, I have eased myself back into yoga. And, I am more accepting of myself as a meat-eating yogini, with all the shades of grey than ever before!
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